A touch of Sweetness

Monday, May 28, 2007

i missed him..
*sighed*

-written. ;

Saturday, May 05, 2007

i went out with him todae..
he initiated it..
we had beef noodles and durians..
its jus a simple dinner..
tt's how zixue put it..

i tot i wun think abt it again..
and zixue managed,
to make me starting thinking abt it..
sometimes i realli feel he's just used to my presence..
perhaps,
the 4 months is a good way to see..
what is the best for me and him..
or perhaps,
i'm jus thinking too much..
or perhaps,
i shall drop one last hint..
or perhaps,
i'll just let it the wat it is..
but..
but...
but... ...

***

was VERY disappointed and upset..
i suppose there goes our friendship...
i know its not easy to build and maintain a friendship..
but..
nahh..
the story is too long to be written down..
jus felt that..
perhaps,
we are just not that important..
or perhaps..
we said the wrong things at the wrong timing..
i dun think its so difficult to have the 5 of us to sit down..
and have a drink..
cos..
i jus wan to see them one last time?
wad if i jus died like tt?
wad if i had a plane crash?
wad if i had an accident over at US?
wad if i'm murder?
wad if i jus couldnt come back?
perhaps,
i'm jus a nobody to them..
i'm jus 'someone'
i'm not even a fren to them..
i realli dun wan things to turn tis way..
but wad to do..
i think i should enjoy myself tml..
since its the last time i'll be seeing yuki before i leave..
perhaps,
i'll just get myself drunk..
wad is it like to be drunk?

-written. ;