A touch of Sweetness

Friday, June 23, 2006

waiting for third meeting to start for project management.. dun understand why in the first place i will choose such a module.. argghh! having business stats ut later.. no confidence of passing.. dun understand wad i've been learning so far.. such a sad case isnt it.. after ut rushing off to cousin's wedding...

upset life..

-written. ;

Saturday, June 17, 2006

ahhh!! dunno why.. recently.. the atmosphere so depressing... =( tot i can run away frm reality.. however! cyber world is equally depressing.. so upset.. utube.. start to suspense ppl who upload dramas.. ahhhh!! tt's depriving me from my entertainment!!! can see ppl start to panic.. cos.. waste so much effort uploading dramas and variety shows.. end up getting suspense.. hai.. its all bcos.. there are selfish ppl.. tatty tell.. >P so selfish.. argh!!

was reading forum awhile ago.. am watching this taiwan variety show for some time.. they actually got 5 host.. but each dae.. only 2 will appear.. den think bcos of misunderstanding.. tis host needs to apply long vacation... usually when e show starts.. there's pic of the 5host.. den.. a few daes ago.. they took out the pic of tis host! but they nv specific tt he's not hosting in the first place.. they do until like tt.. so... arghh!

not only tis.. another host frm tt show.. he wrote blog and i did went to see once in a while.. actualli i dun quite understand why he will write tt way in his recent post.. his article is posted on 13 june.. and i went to watch tt variety show which is broadcast on 12june.. and i understand wad he meant.. hai.. veri upset.. how would u feel if ur best working partner is no longer there... =(

veri saddening.. dunno why..

-written. ;

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

好难过 =( till the end.. i'm still e one at fault.. its not tt i'm difficult to communicate with.. its not tt i dun wan sae wad i feel.. even if i sae how i feel.. things will still be back at square one.. fingers will still be pointing back at me.. how i wish i can find someone who will understand wad i'm gg thru now.. how i wish i can find someone and pour my sorrow.. how i wish...

i know wad i've done is wrong.. but i jus refuse to admit.. wads the pt of admitting.. and no one will forgive u? wads e pt of admitting and fingers will still be pt at u? i refuse to bother things.. cos i know i'm not the perfect tt u expect me to be.. i've tried.. but i failed.. in ur eyes.. i'm always the not perfect girl.. the love care concern and attention will never fall to me.. something i wanted for so long.. something i yearn in my dreams..

tis two weeks.. i know i have been running away from reality.. i shut myself away from people.. i refuse to pick up phone..i choose to off my hp.. i choose not to step out of my bedroom when i can.. the only place i went is work.. the only person i met is my tutee.. they notice the change.. but they din bother to ask.. the only thing they did is pointing fingers at me..

i like the life.. me and myself.. no people.. no ringing of phone.. no school.. no work.. jus me and myself.. i chose to be in this situation.. cos life made me to.. its not that i blame life.. the only thing i can blame.. is me.. for being such a coward.. to stand up from reality..

i really know i'm at fault.. i really do..

*tears rolling....

-written. ;

Friday, June 09, 2006

Rui Rong wants to be alone.. she will be strong and leave this place one day.. can i make my phone disappear for the time being? i hate to hear when the phone starts to ring.. simply hate.. can i not make decision.. can i not know what is happening? can i can i can i? =(

-written. ;

Saturday, June 03, 2006

pls switch on ur speakers.. my current fav chinese song.. 感情线 by 183 Club.. haha! veri meaningful lyrics posted below.. aww.. wun get sick listening to tis song only.. =)

next week start school holidaes le.. and its only 2 weeks.. hai.. got so much things to complete.. hopfulli i can finish them by end of the 2 weeks.. need to write report for e fyp.. plus weekly journal.. den need to edit PP.. e fyp report is enough to take my time le.. so upset.. >P

den need to continue work on my accounting.. damm it! think gotta flunk ut2.. haha! however.. i think e notes i'm reading on for accounting is good.. at least.. right now in class.. i'm not as lost as i was when i'm in lesson1.. =) borrowed books and notes frm zixue for business stats n project management.. haven touched it at all.. haha.. but will definitely do so during the holidaes.. e notes for project management should be able to finish in.. 2 full daes? provided.. i wun get distracted.. aww.. and it so not possible i wun get distracted when i at home lohh! soo much temptation and distraction.. ther is 2 place i'm looking for self study.. either at my sis hall or tp's library.. hmm.. stil in consideration.. or anyone has any good place to reccommand?? the place need to have e switch.. to charge my lappy.. =)

i read horoscope the other dae.. den i saw tt cancer is not realli compatiable with gemini.. =( haha.. crazy me.. hope he's doin well..

-written. ;

中文词:柯呈雄
作曲:aj junior
编曲:吕绍淳陈歆儒

我想我已开始有点疑惑
好像被他说中些什么
难道已经没有别的选择
只能乖乖的束手就策
难过的是我们做了选择
是对是错谁也没把握
如果要我放手才能获得
为何在我心中有舍不得
看着你要走还装著笑容
掩饰的脆弱要撑多久
如果现在开口如何挽留
感情这条线注定只能这么远
不敢相信已经来到终点
想你爱他必定多一些
我们之间不可能再回到从前
我还傻傻画着幸福线
看着你走远还继续装笑脸
掩饰折磨我能撑多久
如果现在开口怎么挽留
感情这条线注定无法延长一点
你已不在而我何时才清醒
相信一切都是命
不曾放弃你我不会说什么
默默的承受像个男子汉
看着你要走[看着看着你要走]
还装着笑容[多么多么笑容]
掩饰的脆弱要撑多久[还要撑多久]
如果现在开口[现在开口]
如何挽留[如何挽留]
感情这条线注定只能这么远看着你要走[woo～]
还装着笑容[we will carry on]
掩饰的脆弱要撑多久[knowing there were words i've never said baby]
如果现在开口[现在开口]
如何挽留[如何挽留]
感情这条线注定只能这么远
[let the words remain unsaid]

-written. ;

Friday, June 02, 2006

people.. pls congrat me.. i've passed tt stupid project management module! haha.. so unbelieveable.. imagine i cant do e whole paper.. i've got a C+.. muahaa!! so proud of myself.. seriously.. lols.. most of e ut1 grades are out.. accounting i've got a C.. business stats B.. tt's veri surprising too! but i'm proud to sae i'm able to all e paper within e time given! jus took marketing last mondae.. so most probably grades wun be out so soon..

i din go sch todae again.. but ther's accounting ut2 later.. leaving hse in 20mins time.. hopefulli tis time round can do better.. =) actualli wanted to study for acc.. but i din know wad i've been doin e whole morning.. lols! in short.. i din prepare to the ut later on.. haha!

weee.. next week holis le!! i got reason not to go sch lee!! but sad to sae.. i've used up alot of my official leaves le.. =( cos sch realli sux.. >P ytd is boatmate bdae.. soo

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAE BOATMATE!!

tml is raymond bdae.. soo..

HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAE RAYMOND!! and clarrisa.. and jee cheng.. hahas!

wish me luck for later ut.. =)

-written. ;