Monday, January 31, 2005
todae...was a bad dae for me? i dunno..when i went school this morning..i still haven recover from the shock from ytd..and i was holding back my tears..wanted to find someone talk abt it..but..no one seems to understand me..is it b'cos i gave people the feeling that i'm strong? but i'm a girl afterall...isnt it? i wasn't as strong as people tot..i wasn't as cheerful as people suppose..when can i be myself? i dunno..i'm always living behind the mask people wans me to..i hate it..i dunno..i hate people create the image of me..I HATE IT!!! and todae..e gers got abit conflict..i dunno why..but if i were her..i also will be angry ba..sae i small gas or wad..but..i will...but her attitude is also...hai..wadever..none of my business..better dun bother so much..onli bring trouble to myself..right? den went for archery..rather fun..finally..can put all the unhappiness behind me..den me huishan(moi aiai), wanting and sam took cab down..cos save time and money..frm rp to potong pasir..each person pay about 2bucks..rather cheap ah..cos need to take bus..den change mrt..den..after tt..ah don came..followed by emporer's best fren..lolx..he was ban frm playing..aiya..long story lah..lolx..den pj came..he kept scold the F word..lolx..den hor..we think he scold too much F word liao..his arrow stuck at the wooden block there..lolx..so funny sia..den cannot take down..i think his arrow gone liao..ehh..the arrow cost quite alot wor..lolx..nvm lah..he rich mah..lolx..i currently love this song..dunno why..by Mini & Gu'er..
Love 别再哭了 你看天都亮了
Oh-我相信就在远方 能让我们爱飞翔
Don't Cry My Love 别再哭了 窗外雨都停了
Oh-我相信就在前方 一定撒满了阳光
我相信 就算长夜漫漫 偶尔觉得孤单
我们的爱依然坚强 虽然我们相爱太难
不能够长相伴 思念为爱找到方向
Don't Cry My Love 别再哭了
你看天都亮了Oh-我相信某个远方
能让我们爱飞翔 Don't Cry
i miss him...i miss lots of people..suddenli feel like cycling and badminton...ohya..todae ask victor scan e pictures for me..doing a BIG project..hee..before i gave him the pics..i've look through..and many feelings came to me..friendships..loves..rejection..and i realise..i wasn't who i used to be..not anymore..environment forced me to..to be even more protective of myself..i dun wan to get hurt..not anymore..my heart still hurts..u dun heal frm the pain..u jus get along wif the pain..and this pain..will follow u forever..
-written. ;
Sunday, January 30, 2005
well...jus came back from malaysia..the trip was..so-so loh..wad else...err...we went in around 8 plus..den reach my aunty house ard 10..there was traffic jam...but it wasn't too long..den today..we had dim sum for breakfast...and it cost around 30 plus! hahaa..but actualli..i wasn't full yet ahh...lolx..den went shopping at GAINT...i bought a badminton racket! lolx..though quite pasar lah..but at least..i own my own racket le mah..right? lolx..den...went over my uncle house..he jus had operation..den my very young cousin is there..its a ger..veri cute..hee..den went for lunch..after tt went back my aunty house..ard 3 plus went set off..back to singapore...den quite jam..and guess wad? we meet an accident..i mean..a malaysia car hit ours..and i was..omg..sae i timid or wad..i'm realli scare..even till now..cos..my aunt encourage me go learn driving next year..and in the first place..i wasn't veri keen..cos..i've seen drivers turn the curb there..and was like..omg..and now..met the accident..i dun think i will ever go learn..unless there's a mircale..lolx..well..tt's all ba..lolx..ohya...sat went to see the competition..and..it makes me feel that i've liked archery more..i dunno whether is the people or archery itself..but i knew..i've grown the like peeps at archery..EXCEPT for PJ's BEST FREIND...lolx..well...i know who is it can le..but..for those who turned up for tt competition..it was realli veri fun and enjoyable..i've grown to love them!! lolx...hai..I WANT TO FALL IN LOVE!!! lolx...but i dun dare......anymore..
-written. ;
Friday, January 28, 2005
now having C&C third meeting...and its was so boring..wanted to play neopets..but..haiya..anyway..tml i'm going malaysia!! yeah!! lolx..not really for holday lah..is go visit an uncle of mine who is in malaysia's hospital..i hear there is something wrong with his heart..but anyway..it feels good to be away from singapore..i jus can't breathe...hope nothing will happen! yaaahhoooo~its weekend!!! lolx..i better go listen my class...if not.............
-written. ;
wahahaa..now in class..today is C&C...den my grp super chopchop...they finish ppt liao...fast rite..they've got my genes..lolx..super chopchop..den now all my team members all go eat..left me..lolx..so sian..abt the blogskin..i thinking of giving up..cos..it was like very difficult loh...den..dunno leh..maybe i'll try again at home?? eunice ytd nite msn me...den sae intend going out..actually wan tis sundae de..but jackson and kelli like super busy...so ended up...eunice suggest go on 13Feb...actualli me and kelli dated eunice on 12Feb..den she tell me she might not be free..hmm...dunno ah...sian..lolx..i'm not saying going out with them is sian ahh...lolx..jus a comment..aiya..wadever..lolx..den tml me gg see the archery competition..lolx..wan ting told me something very funny..she sae pj(senior/captain of achery) is the emperor..den don is the adviser..den huishan is empress..den i'm emperor left hand..lolx..den she sae she nothing..den i sae she emperor right hand..lolx..cos i'm the only left-hander in acrhery..den..aiya..alot things ah..so they sae i'm his 'precious' left hander..lolx..so funny..den i sae his my 'favourite' senior..wahahaa..actually..pj not bad lah..i mean when u know him more..den he can be very funn loh..lolx..tt time at potong pasir..he go gay with eric kwek..lolx..den we were like...OMG~!!! lolx..ohya..GOOD LUCK FOR RP ARCHERS TML!!! lolx..crazy me...whahaa..i finished huan zhu gege novel le..the ending was like..dunno leh..very far-fetch loh..maybe is because i very late read..den tired le..so feel so impossible loh..lolx..anyway..felt relieved i've finish the book..amazing me lehh...lolx..
-written. ;
Thursday, January 27, 2005
today...well..i dunno why..these few days..alot things happen..and i was like..i felt so tired and stress..okay..start from tis morning..after ut..i sign in..den my guy fren msn me..he told me a lot of things..den he told me he gg operation..den i was..shocked lah..still can wad..when it comes to love..there's no right or wrong to those who are players..when as an outsider see..hai..dunno ah..people ard me seems so sad..make me upset also..i actualli got alot wan to write one..but..now cant think..so many things..someone help? hai..i guess..i dunno lah..sian..ohya..after weijun keep 'pester' me do my own blogskin..or wadever it is call..i think i'll give it a shot..lolx..hopefully..i wun do halfway den gib up..lolx..den zixue got give me some tips..den i've looked up internet for the html codes..lolx..wish me luck!! and..this sat gg ntu see my senior competition..lolx...for archery..hahaa..
-written. ;
well..reached early..and is super early...lolx..nothing to do...den come update loh..wad to do..life in rp is like tt one mah..hahaa..no lah..actually..ok lah..but work load seems to be much more lighter as compared to other polys..lolx..shiok eh?? hahaa..rather proud of myself..new skinblog leh..lolx..though not i do one..but i spent like..2hr++ to edit everything..hahaa...not bad liao loh..lolx..i know still got more to edit ah..but..lolx..i need help!! hahaa...waiting for ut to start..omg..err..i dun realli know anything..hopefully...i can scrape through..but..hai...lolx..seems my grade is falling..nvm..I'LL WORK HARDER..wahahaa..gtg!! ohya..my stupid sis bought the huan zhu ge ge part3..lolx..siao one right..so...going off to read!!
-written. ;
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
well...today...so-so loh..still can how?? didn't go for archery...dun ask me why..felt so...nvm...dun mention abt it..its not that i hate it...but...hai...jus dun bother..change of plan..ask zixue out..again..begin to feel like we are couples...CHOY!! touchwood..i not les..i'm straight..lolx..went kbox..the atmosphere wasnt right..perhaps..its b'cos of wad have happened recently? i dunno..i wish i know..but..hai..den kelli msg me..sae there's something important..well..i thought something happen to eunice..she sound so serious..whahaa..but no lah..it is serious..but not as serious as i thought..wad am i talking? nvm...wadever..ask her to call zixue phone..cos zixue's is incoming free..whahaa..den chatted awhile..hai...could have chatted more..but its was soo noisy..so no choice..gotta put down..den...went back singing..but atmosphere jus wasn't there..so..we bill and walk to bus-stop..decided a special gift for eunice..wahaha..was rather excited..finally..something looking forward to...argghh...tml got ut...and i've not studied at all yet..wish me luck..lolx..
-written. ;
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
wooh...suddenly like many things happening...today there's a ut...erm...is enterprise...i reached school quite early..hence i surf around the net..i was looking at one of my fren's friendster profile..well...i've got a shock out of my life..i realise that i wasnt there when she needed me most..i felt so guilty...we are best friends..and what are best friends for? i don't know..just felt so useless..wanted to help..but i don't know how to...looking back...what i can say...memories are meant to be kept in one's heart...and recently...my poly fren...also facing relationship problem...actually..perhaps its different character..that's why...what she's going through...are just parts and parcels of life..and i've gone through that part..that's why...i don't dare to love deep anymore..
-written. ;
