A touch of Sweetness

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

好难过 =( till the end.. i'm still e one at fault.. its not tt i'm difficult to communicate with.. its not tt i dun wan sae wad i feel.. even if i sae how i feel.. things will still be back at square one.. fingers will still be pointing back at me.. how i wish i can find someone who will understand wad i'm gg thru now.. how i wish i can find someone and pour my sorrow.. how i wish...

i know wad i've done is wrong.. but i jus refuse to admit.. wads the pt of admitting.. and no one will forgive u? wads e pt of admitting and fingers will still be pt at u? i refuse to bother things.. cos i know i'm not the perfect tt u expect me to be.. i've tried.. but i failed.. in ur eyes.. i'm always the not perfect girl.. the love care concern and attention will never fall to me.. something i wanted for so long.. something i yearn in my dreams..

tis two weeks.. i know i have been running away from reality.. i shut myself away from people.. i refuse to pick up phone..i choose to off my hp.. i choose not to step out of my bedroom when i can.. the only place i went is work.. the only person i met is my tutee.. they notice the change.. but they din bother to ask.. the only thing they did is pointing fingers at me..

i like the life.. me and myself.. no people.. no ringing of phone.. no school.. no work.. jus me and myself.. i chose to be in this situation.. cos life made me to.. its not that i blame life.. the only thing i can blame.. is me.. for being such a coward.. to stand up from reality..

i really know i'm at fault.. i really do..

*tears rolling....

-written. ;