A touch of Sweetness

Friday, April 22, 2005

i'm tired..mentally and physically..perhaps..i'm e one who has changed..why am i back to this state again? being suspicious and worryin abt everything..y life cant be like the way it is before? sick n tired of everything..sucks..

people sae..i smile at everything..so..wad do u wan me to do? keep my face black? fine..if tt's wad they wan..den be it..y am i always so concern abt how ppl feels? y cant someone understand how i feels..sucks..

gotta make a decision..which i dun wan to..and i dun wish to..cos..no matter which step i take..i wun haf the best of both world..i was asked to join back archery..but ther's too much things to consider..maybe u think i'm being silly..wad for worry abt such things..e reason is..cos i love it..tt's simple isn't it? wad i was thinking..is..when they are in need..i wasn't ard..and when they have settled e things..then i joined back..doesn't it sounds like..i'm someone who couldn't survive hardship with them? i will feel..i dunno..i dun wan it tis way..but i guess..i gotta find a way out..soon..

i need help..i seriousli need help..or else..i couldn't imagine wad would happen..i need consulting..

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